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Crippling Fear - Syerubi's Happy Space
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Thu, Feb. 13th, 2014 10:17 pm
Crippling Fear


I don't know what it is about my psyche, but I just really fall apart when I think about actually going out into the working world and being taken seriously. I've fixed my resume a couple dozen times, but when it comes to actually applying for jobs.. I just can't bring myself to do it half the time. The thought of going into an office.. having to do the whole song-and-dance bullshit blah blah blah, all the while being silently judged.. it's almost crippling. I can hear my father in my head, 'just go out and get it done,' but it just.. hurts. I wish the world were different, and I want to have a part in making it different, but the actual getting started part is scary.

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woekitten
woekitten
Dance Floor Exhaustion
Sat, Feb. 15th, 2014 07:40 pm (UTC)

You're one of the most personable people I know! Not to say your fears aren't justified, but your father's words hold a lot of wisdom as well.

If this was a perfect world, I could be there to roundhouse kick anyone that judges you (okay, well, if it was a perfect world, they wouldn't judge to begin with - but then I wouldn't be able to kick anyone).


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syerubi
syerubi
Syerubi
Sat, Feb. 15th, 2014 08:55 pm (UTC)

Hee! Nadia, thank you. <3 You're a kind person and an amazing writer. :D I hope we get to see you soon! Can you be here for my next interview? LOL


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